That i don’t believe in god anymore. My family was very religious growing up

That it all worked out, somehow.

that im still alive
20 was the expectancy
i always say im running on fumes of spite now and i got plenty of spite still left

That I’m a runner. Never in my life did I imagine ever enjoying running. Aiming for my first marathon in spring!

1. That I’d rather go outside than play video games all day.

2. That I no longer care about becoming a software developer and work in a huge corporation (fuck 'em)

3. That I still have no girlfriend.

That I live in a small car with my wife and a cat. lol Never would have ever guessed that.

At least it’s temporary as we are buying land and will soon get an RV and build a house.

“Still a fat loser I see. And a weed smoker? But, our D.A.R.E lion? 🥺”

I guess how much I’m still the same person. Sure, I have a house, a job, I’m an adult. But I also still play video games, including stuff like RCT which I lived back in the day. My brain still switches from interest to interest, and my brain is still completely obsessed whatever interests me at the moment. Ultimately I’m still that slightly weird nerdy kid, just grown up.

12 y/o me would probably be amazed that his fancy new Nintendo DS is still alive and kicking almost 20 years down the line. In hindsight it’s not too surprising though, because I always treated it with the utmost respect and care.

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I didn’t have a lot of belief in myself. At 10 my dream was “work in an office”, because it would mean I was smart enough to not need to work a manual job. I also firmly believed that no woman would want me.

I’d be surprised to learn that I’m married, have a child, and work in tech for one of the biggest companies in the world. They’d also be surprised that I’m moving to that city where Friends is.

10 year old me would be extremely disappointed in my Christmas lights.

I should have Clark W. Griswold level lights, but with colors and blinking lights.

Instead I put up all plain white lights along the windows and doors and a wreath like a reasonable person.

It’s so much work as an adult with adult responsibilities to find time to hang lights, and even worse when you have to take them down.

I am ashamed.

Life gets worse. Much worse. And you will survive and even find happiness. And everything you needed, you had it all along.

I finally learned to ride a bike. And I touched boobies.

Computers aren’t cool anymore.

That I’m still alive.