I genuinely feel like no matter what I do, psychopaths can always pretty much immediately defect me as the perfect victim.

I think it’s partly because I’m ugly, partly because I’m sensitive, and they can just tell I’m a weak person.

It’s making my life a living hell, no matter how hard I try I just can’t blend it, I can’t force myself to act a certain way, it’s exhausting to me

Help…

  • j4k3@lemmy.world
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    4 days ago

    I know my weakness is my emotional depth. I keep protections in place mentally with a zero tolerance policy of trust. Like if my boss or coworker cheats on their partner, I know I will never trust that person or their character/ethics. The concept is one of the few that I retain from my religious past: “faithful in little; faithful in much.” Any person that shrugs off little lies or dishonesty is revealing their true ethics or lack there of. I do not try to hide who I am or lie about anything intentionally. Therein lies my lack of depth. I am unaware of how people filter and mask who they are in intentional ways, so anyone that shows harmful potential is someone I avoid and never trust more than is convenient or that I am forced.