But I don’t want her to fail. I want to be wrong, desperately. I legitimately want to feel fucking stupid about being doomer in 4 years.

I’ll probably try to help in non-risky ways at best but I think I might be pretty useless anyway. Being an atheist and terrified of death/non-existence yet also resenting having been born doesn’t tend to make one particularly productive in meaningfully resisting death cult nazi’s.

I don’t know if I’m capable of being productive. I’m having a mental breakdown.

Staying silent is exhausting.

White, yes. Bisexual though. AMAB, but honestly IDK what my gender is. I just go by he/him for convenience though.

Significantly Autistic. Negative net worth from the expense of a nearly worthless college degree. Live in a red state rural American wasteland. Terrified of death yet still with suicidal idealization as of late.

But honestly none of this matters. Concern over Identity is all virtue ethics. I don’t care about virtue ethics. My identity doesn’t intrinsically matter outside the consequences of it. Whether I’m correct matters. Consequences matter. Or at least, mattered.

I owe you literally nothing. I owe the world literally nothing. I could just off myself out of spite and I’d be 100% in the right because I literally did not choose to be born, no individual chooses to be born.

That said, I earnestly wanted the world to be better. I used to have a small sliver of hope for that. My resentment toward politics comes from seemingly having to swim up a fucking waterfall while people who ought to have been my allies hold my ankles.

Human beings are dying everyday in horribly unjust ways, not just Palestinians, and Palestinians are going to be worse off under Trump. If you disagree with the latter point you are delusional and we don’t need to talk anymore.

I wanted to minimize death and suffering. Harris objectively would have caused less than Trump. That’s it.

Its probably something to do with being autistic but IDK.

I’m not being rational anymore since the election, I’m just giving in a lot to bad impulses because I don’t have much fight in me anymore because before I kind thought things were worth fighting for. Now I look around at the average stranger and think “7/10 times that person either voted for Trump or failed to vote meaning I probably hate them.” And then like, half of the remainder who voted Harris were probably libs that were anti-Bernie Sanders in 2016 and 2020 so I don’t think I’d be happy to meet them either. Its not good for my mental health and there is no solution but suffering a now pointless fucking existence.

I know other thoughts floating in my head are new as well and I’m not super thrilled about them.

I’m not, I’m just angry and bitter and venting. Its not rational its seeking catharsis from lashing out.

Understandable.

How about I loudly announce whatever the fuck I want.

You fundamentally misunderstand why I used to care and now don’t. I don’t believe in virtue ethics, I don’t even believe in free will.

Before it mattered if they won because it’d (maybe) prevent doom. Now I don’t see a way out. Its consequences that matter and we’re now signed up for the worst consequences regardless.

It sometimes depends on the programmer’s situation. Maybe its “lose a ton of credibility or live on the street/lose your H-1B Visa”

Hes going to blame DEI for everything this time because he can’t use the “deep state” excuse anymore.

I already wasted 20 years of my life in sacrifice to politics. I want to be done and other than venting about how we’re doomed I more or less am done, thank you.

I hope I’m wrong, and I earnestly wish her luck but I do not owe a population of people who chose Trump a single solitary fucking thing. I’m bitter, exhausted, and my patience is gone.

Sometimes its either ship something broken or lose your job.

Good luck to her.

No you fucking ingrate. Democrats would have lost if they listened to them anyway. The tik tok voters were never going to vote for democrats, that would be against their sense of virtue. Harris fucked up a ton by not distancing herself from conservatives and Biden but even she tried to throw the Palestinian protesters a bone at one point and there wasn’t a singular budge.

The reason the DNC lost is many. The blame for the end of US democracy is easily spread around because there are many people deserving of blame. It doesn’t really matter anymore anyway though does it?

I say this as an autist who used to fucking loathe talking on the phone: Its that the phone takes up too much mental energy and time, yet has a time limit on your own responses. Its hellishly stressful when you are socially incompetent, and now a lot of even non-autistic people are becoming socially incompetent.

Now its funny, I hated phone calls back when everyone liked them. Now I’m pretty OK at them because I worked at a call center for a year and now it seems like everyone now hates phone calls. I kinda recognize that the one nice thing about phone calls is there is no “set up your account before ordering your food” type bullshit. There is a consistency to phone calls.

I am a leftist. I hate the DNC. I hate apolitical dimwits. And I hate virtue voters and protest voters. I canvassed for democrats in a delusional bid to maintain my sanity this election and I will never do that again. I don’t care if the democrats ever “win again” now. It doesn’t matter you imbecile, we’re doomed.

I don’t fathom how you don’t understand this. Its fucking over. Are you not paying attention?

I want a hug.