

i feel you! though not for relationships, in fact it’s principally discouraged (i moved off the website and met my long-distance girlfriend here however) the open-source “chat with random people” website mero.chat is a curated space for all people that are lonely!
explicit awareness and pro-active curation has fostered a really wonderful community. i highly encourage you to chat with some people on mero.chat and just see if you feel less lonely =)
that’s the good part of my comment. the bad part is i felt like you did for years, it’s alot and i feel you. there’s guaranteed to be people just like you feeling just as isolated- so glad to see you post about this because of that!
i wonder why big operating systems like Debian-derivatives are used instead of smaller ones like TinyCore linux. smaller codebase ought to be simpler to maintain completely?