Hey, you are okay as you are. Thanks for sharing because that’s a really important skill to have.
You sound depressed or maybe just a moment of weaknes is flowing over you, but in any case it’s always good to talk to your doctor about it. If you don’t like your doctor get a new one. I have before stayed too long with a bad doctor and it was a revelation when I moved house and was forced to change. Having a good doctor to talk to about depression, ADHD and mental health is just so important, and a great help.
I hope you’ll feel better soon. Stay safe.
…Me avoiding responsibilities…